- Hebrews 13:5
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said,“Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”
God will never leave us, never forsake us. Ever. Whenever we feel that space between us and God, it is because we moved away from Him. But like the sign I saw in a local store I wonder if I am presently unavailable or persistently unavailable?
Some days are we also too available to the distractions that keep us from our time with God? The phone, email, internet, social networking, chores, a novel or something else? Something sometimes darker and less easy to pull back from like addiction. We have to keep trying.
When we embark on something that challenges us to come closer to God, you know who will try to come between. The devil does not fear anything less than he fears a distracted Christian. We are not praying, we are not fellow-shipping, we are not engaged in our faith and we are no threat to him.
However, that same believer who turns their face back to God, turns their hearts towards Him and the same believer who, even with one single word prays again becomes a HUGE threat. A dangerous person who needs to be distracted and powerless again. When we move back towards God we will be attacked. We will be distracted.
Don't give up. Don't stop praying. Don't stop working at the work God has put before you. Even when it seems like you are taking two steps forward and one step back.
I'm doing the Respect Dare again. Opening up the door to encourage and be encouraged. To respect, even when it is so very hard. And it is sometimes. It is very different this time, and yet some things are not so different.
The devil still wants me to fail. He still distracts me through the places he knows I'm most vulnerable. He will fail. Ultimately. But the small battles I lose to him seem like great victories and losses.
Seeking to be a perfect wife and mother is not my battle. Being okay with being (im)perfect is. While I don't seek perfection, he delights in telling me how I fail anyway. So even though I do not seek it - I'm constantly reminded I wouldn't be worthy even if I did. It crushes me some days. Almost.
Oh how that sneaky dark one tries to snare me. No in seeking perfection but in accepting I don't have to pursue it. By showing me I couldn't EVEN IF I WANTED TO!
So I made a decision. I will keep trying. I will keep praying. I will keep failing. I will keep falling down and getting back up. I have put my arms around the (im) and put some space between me and perfect.
How about you? What does the devil try to trip you up with? Can we pray together over it?